1 years ago...

I cannot believe its been a whole year... yet I cannot believe its only been a year if that makes sense?? I don't mean that in a bad way, I just can't even imagine what life was like before all this. Before I had my own house to play with and pritty up, before I was a nurse, before I had a big ol fat belly (which has only been a couple months), and before I married the hands down most fantastic person I've ever met. 

The last year has been the perfect start to the rest of my life. At work I see a lot of elderly and there spouses, one couple in particular just yesterday. They had been married for 56 years and still held hands for nearly my whole 12 hour shift and kissed as often as possible. They were both so pleasantly confused (both had early alzheimers), but it was so evident the one thing that made sense to them and that was each other. She helped him to the bathroom in just his little whitie tighties and tom cruise type socks (I nearly died they were so cute) and helped him with absolutely everything. Even would jump in and help in the middle of  his dressing changes I was doing on his incision that we usually prefer to stay as clean and sterile as possible, but I let her do just cause she wanted to help. I was so in love with them and I thought about Jacob and I, 56 years from now, and how there's no doubt in my mind that I will just continue to fall in love with him more and more everyday until then. Its amazing how much someone really can complete your life after you take that step with them (as cliche as that sounds). Its like I never can imagine anything but this anymore, just pure happiness. I never want to go back, if anything I want to start over again from August 6th, 2010 and just relive the greatest year of my life. 

I remember another elderly man I had as a patient just a few weeks ago. He was in his 90's and was also pleasantly confused. He didn't have anyone there with him though, I received frequent calls from his working daughter that he lived with, but I figured he had a spouse who must have passed away...so I asked. He responded and said with more clarity than anything else he said to me all day..."I was married for 65 years to the most beautiful woman in the world". I responded and said, "I love that..." and he responded with "I loved her". She passed away from cancer 3 years ago and he wanted to join her. 

So in celebration of our first anniversary...we promised each other no gifts (saving up for the little one you know). But I told him all I want is to go back to the place where we started. The hotel we stayed at in Scottsdale a year ago, and order pizza (just like we did) and just start again. I feel so blessed that I crossed paths with Jacob at that random single adult party where I was cringing the whole time cause I LOATHED those things...and this handsome blue eye'd blond hair boy in a red shirt and red hat walked in and said hi to my little sister Kelly and I told her "I must meet that man". I know if it wasn't there it would have been somewhere else. I never thought I'd be almost 6 months pregnant on our 1 year anniversary, I guess thats what happens when your unexpectedly expecting. Here's some pics of when in all started...sorry for the cheesiness. 

20 weeks:)

So Tuesday was our 20 week ultra sound, I would be lying if I said I didn't have a tear or two come down when I saw this little guy for the first time (that he looked human of course). I loved watching Jacobs face in awe watching our lil creation on the screen. 

I LOVE this one where he is sucking his thumb & you can see he's kickin...made all the movements I feel , even more real to me.

So this is him, I can't wait for him to get here. 20 weeks down so we still got a little while thank goodness cause theres much to do to prepare for his arrival. 

The next day after the ultra sound I got a call from my OB which I thought was really odd, he said he wanted to talk to me about my ultra sound. I fought tears of fear when I heard it cause I was horrified that maybe something wasn't quite right for him to personally call me. I called back and he explained to me that everything is good with the baby, but I have placenta previa. Meaning part of my placenta is covering the cervix right and if it doesn't pull back as the uterus grows along with the baby, that I would have to get a C-section :( But he said it could very well pull back as the uterus grows...so we shall hope for the best :)

We're on a BOAT!!

Yes we sang that song the entire cruise.

So we decided to take our "babymoon" since after the baby comes we won't be able to do this for awhile. We left from Long Beach and stopped at Catalina Island and Ensenada and then spent another few days in Cali after we got off the boat. It was a MUCH needed vacation. I loved every minute of it. We slept for about 12 hours a night, ate about 8-10 meals a day always followed by about 3 ice cream cones after each meal.

Ya we ate a lot. I could actually see myself getting fatter everyday.

Our room was this tiny little cozy cabin with an amazing view of the ocean..

Please don't take my ridiculous poses seriously, I just feel so awkward taking pictures by myself this is just what I do. So Jacob insisted as we leave we have to wave goodbye to the 0 people on land.

So anyone whose gone on a cruise knows that they are CONSTANTLY taking pictures of you and they have these stations where you can get these ridiculously cheezy pictures. So we of course could not resist, I could not stop laughing the whole time but this was the end result of our photo session. & yes I caved and bought it cause Jacobs face KILLS me.

Then on another night I go into the bathroom & leave Jacob for just a moment, and come out and find Jacob taking these....by himself.

And yes I am cheap and took a picture of the picture.

So the first stop was in Catalina where we rented a tandem bike and rode around the island, so fun. 

 I wanted this onesie oh so bad...(this ones for you Ash :)

& then I got these BEAUTIFUL new Toms thanks to my loving husband and it being my birthday the next day..

So the following day we got off in Ensenada Mexico and took a bus to La Bufadora which is a famous geizer there and did some Mexican bargaining at the lil shops.

The next day was a day at sea, Jacob was dying to go on the slide and for me to record him since they had a live camera that would show on the tv stations in our room. Hahah he waved the whole time so I would know it was him, even though that was farely obvous being that he was the only kid above the age of like 7 who went down it.

Yes we did some mini golf, even though Jacob looks like he's at the driving range..

Followed by sticking my legs in the hot tub which you can tell I was devastated I couldn't get all the way in, I love hot tubs :(

So following our cruise we stayed in Cali for another couple days and hung out on the beach, such a needed vacation and I hate coming home to reality :( But I guess we gots to grow up sometime.

The ER...AGAIN??

Seriously...if I tell jacob one more time that I need to go to the ER, I'm pretty sure he will refuse unless I stop breathing. 3 ER trips since we have been together! This boy has been such a trooper though. He holds my hand and stays with me the whole time even when I'm super snappy because I'm rolling around dramatically in pain.

So yesterdays ER trip started yesterday as I woke up and was getting ready to go to work when the pain in my left middle back started. I tried to get myself to work but the pain was so intense I couldn't even drive. So I called my manager while I was bawling due to extreme pain, drove to my Mom's, and was met there by Jacob and his Dad who give me a blessing and get me to the ER. I felt it was probably kidney stones since I have had them 3 times now and I recognized the pain, but I was so nervous because this time theres a baby in ther! After an ultra sound of my kidneys and one of the baby, turns out I have a large stone passing because my ureter was much "fatter" on that side as the ER doc described it. And the baby, PERFECT. It was so crazy seeing that little guy or gal again because I haven't seen it since I was 7 weeks and it basically looked like a blob. This time I saw its facial features, lil hands & feet, and a cute HUGE tummy! It was fun to see him/her again. I asked if she could tell me the sex cause the baby is measuring like a week and a half passed the due date, but she said she wasn't that type of tech that could tell its gender. It was so fun to see da wittle baby. 

So now I'm chillin at home, waiting for this freakin boulder to pass. I just hope and pray child birth isn't as bad as the pain I've experienced with kidney stones. Here are some pics to document our many ER trips.

This was the first time I had kidney stones when Jacob and I were just dating. I threw up the whole time cause I cannot tolerate pain for the life of me!

This was our trip to the ER on valentines day that was not by choice, I was really sick with the flu and went to my family Doc who told me I had spinal meningitis and needed to go to the ER immediately. I did NOT have spinal meningitis but did switch my fam Doc : )

K I know this is the UGLIEST pic of all time but this is what I looked like all day yesterday. They couldn't get any pain meds to even touch the pain it was so bad. 

The pics are from my phone so I'm sorry for the crappy quality, but this was our trip to the OR for Jacob's ACL repair. He may have been the funniest person EVER to coming out of general anesthesia. Love this man.

So hopefully we'll be done with the ER for awhile, pretty sure we've had enough trips there to last us for our whole marriage. Next time to the hospital will be in November, when we'll leave with our CHILD!!! So crazy.

Big news folks...

So...yesterday I got a Mothers Day surprise from my dear husband Jacob. Why you ask am I receiving Mothers day gifts? Well read on and you may find out. First off, I begged and pleaded to get this...

And...he got it for me! I am convinced this is the miracle my booty needs. This guy trains Victoria's Secret models so you know he's good. I so excited to get it in the mail!

Then... here comes announcement time. He surprised me with this little combination...

This guy knew that pickles and ice cream are pregnancy craving food from the show "Pregnant in Heals" on TLC. One of my new fav's! So yes, this is what it means. We are unexpectedly expecting! I am 11 weeks and we're due November 30th! Here's the proof...can you tell I was in complete shock cause I took 4? I actually took one the next day as well in utter disbelief..still positive though.

 This was definitely a surprise to us, we've only been married 9 months and we "planned" to wait about 2 years before we even thought about kids. But life doesn't always go according to plan as I've learned. We planned to wait for many reasons, one being that my little sister Kelly just barely left on her mission and we intended to wait until she at least got home. Secondly, if any of you know my incredible sister Brittany...you'll know that she has been trying for about 6 years to get pregnant. Let me tell you that there is NO ONE in this world who deserves this more than she does. I never in a million years imagined myself getting this blessing before her. However, she is doing infertility treatments very soon and I truly feel that this is going to be her time, and I am so beyond thrilled for her.

So this might be a little personal/ somewhat inaapropriate to post on a blog, but I just think my husband is so funny! This is a close up of the card he gave me...

Hahah totally inappropriate to post on a blog right? I just laugh so much! Gotta love that man.

So this experience thus far has been unlike I ever expected it would be, because its unexpected. However don't let that downplay our excitement...we are thrilled to start our little family. We told our parents about a month ago by making these little cheesy shirts. If you know my family, you'll know we love to make ridiculous shirts.

Mama was so excited she grabbed a random worker at the restaurant to tell her the news.

Jacob may be a little further along than I am here as you can tell. We took those pics on our shirts at Dave and Busters while we were dating at the "gene machine" where they combine your faces and make your child, and that baby was definitely not the child they said we would create. The machine made a child that was absolutely hideous, so I replaced it with a cute baby.

We are so excited for this next chapter in our lives. I haven't really been that sick except the occasional nausea & severe exhaustion. Actually, last week I threw up in Jacob's car just cause I hadn't eaten anything for awhile...I laughed, but Jacob did not.  

So that's our big news...we made a baby!