Seriously, 4 am?

I get it now when they say the end of pregnancy is preparing you for baby. It's 4 am and here I am updating da blog! Figured it was time since its been like 2.5 months. Well were almost there, coming up on 39 weeks! I have been trying to stay at work as long as I can but being on my feet for 12 hours with no sleep is getting to be slightly impossible. Hence me calling off today. 

I'm getting to the point of anxiety, anxious to meet this little boy who will forever be part of my existence. It's so weird to think of a human life being created, in a little over a week (hopefully not any longer) Jacob and I will literally be adding someone new to the world, it might be the most exciting feeling I've ever had slash the most terrifying. I'm terrified because for the last 9 months I've thought of almost nothing else but this little boy...and his room, his clothes, what car seat to buy, which fabric to use for his bedding, what books I should buy to read to him...but now its what kind of Mother will I be to him? Will I be patient, will I know how to comfort him, will I know how to protect him from the world...and will I be good at it? I have known since the moment I saw Jacob with his nieces and nephews that he will be good at this...he loves to play, he is extremely patient, and the connections he makes with those that are close to him is unlike anything I've ever seen. This kid is gonna be a dang good Dad.I say kid cause even though he's almost 25 he's kinda just a big kid. 

All I can do now is just wait....wait for these next 11 days to go by to meet this lil person whose been hanging out inside me for the last 9 months. Wait to see the kind of Mother I can be to him. Wait to see what he's gonna look like, what his personality will be like, what he'll like and dislike, and wait to know what this lil boys life will hold. I'm getting overwhelmed just thinking about this journey we are about to start...but I am so excited for it I can hardly stand it! Here are some pics of the room, I have thought about it almost constantly since we found out what we were having...I think it was my way of letting him know how much I'm in love with him already. 

The garden of Jacob

 I am a failure at blogging. I can never figure out anything exciting enough going on in my life to blog about. But I have truly found my husbands new hobby entertaining enough to document. This man has put his whole heart and soul into the skill of...gardening. Here are some pics to document what my husband spends his spare time doing..

He began with planting seeds into small cups with soil in them...yup, just like 1st grade.  He babied those things like they were all his children. Can't wait to see how good he'll be at the real deal:)

This is Jacobs grape vine, he has literally marked its growth up the wall and makes me look at it daily. 

This is it, he even bought the white picket fence to go around it for protection from our hens we're apparently going to get one day. He called the process "transplanting" because he had to transport the growing spuds in the cup to there new home in Jacobs garden.

Well I'm still growing, everyday. Trust me its pretty rapidly...I refuse to step on the scale until I got to my OB appointment and when I see the number then I go into a state of shock and panic. Its crazy seeing these numbers on a scale that I've never been in my life I never hoped I ever would be! But what do you do. This kid is growin and there's no stoppin it! Here were some pics from the last ultra sound we had at 24 weeks.

He wouldn't hold still hardly for a second so it was hard to get a clear shot, but I love him to pieces already!! Here's what he looks like from the outside...

Here we are at 29 weeks! Only 11 weeks till this lil guy will arrive. Jacob mocks me when I ask him to take a picture of me like this, but I explain to him that you have to document such an occasion. So here is Jacob, 29 weeks??

We got our crib a little while back, I love just basic cribs so its nothing fancy...so here is da daddy putting it together.

and practicing for the real deal...

Luke's room has been my project the last few months, bedding won't be here for a while but this is da mama just anxiously awaiting. Please don't take me seriously...

1 years ago...

I cannot believe its been a whole year... yet I cannot believe its only been a year if that makes sense?? I don't mean that in a bad way, I just can't even imagine what life was like before all this. Before I had my own house to play with and pritty up, before I was a nurse, before I had a big ol fat belly (which has only been a couple months), and before I married the hands down most fantastic person I've ever met. 

The last year has been the perfect start to the rest of my life. At work I see a lot of elderly and there spouses, one couple in particular just yesterday. They had been married for 56 years and still held hands for nearly my whole 12 hour shift and kissed as often as possible. They were both so pleasantly confused (both had early alzheimers), but it was so evident the one thing that made sense to them and that was each other. She helped him to the bathroom in just his little whitie tighties and tom cruise type socks (I nearly died they were so cute) and helped him with absolutely everything. Even would jump in and help in the middle of  his dressing changes I was doing on his incision that we usually prefer to stay as clean and sterile as possible, but I let her do just cause she wanted to help. I was so in love with them and I thought about Jacob and I, 56 years from now, and how there's no doubt in my mind that I will just continue to fall in love with him more and more everyday until then. Its amazing how much someone really can complete your life after you take that step with them (as cliche as that sounds). Its like I never can imagine anything but this anymore, just pure happiness. I never want to go back, if anything I want to start over again from August 6th, 2010 and just relive the greatest year of my life. 

I remember another elderly man I had as a patient just a few weeks ago. He was in his 90's and was also pleasantly confused. He didn't have anyone there with him though, I received frequent calls from his working daughter that he lived with, but I figured he had a spouse who must have passed away...so I asked. He responded and said with more clarity than anything else he said to me all day..."I was married for 65 years to the most beautiful woman in the world". I responded and said, "I love that..." and he responded with "I loved her". She passed away from cancer 3 years ago and he wanted to join her. 

So in celebration of our first anniversary...we promised each other no gifts (saving up for the little one you know). But I told him all I want is to go back to the place where we started. The hotel we stayed at in Scottsdale a year ago, and order pizza (just like we did) and just start again. I feel so blessed that I crossed paths with Jacob at that random single adult party where I was cringing the whole time cause I LOATHED those things...and this handsome blue eye'd blond hair boy in a red shirt and red hat walked in and said hi to my little sister Kelly and I told her "I must meet that man". I know if it wasn't there it would have been somewhere else. I never thought I'd be almost 6 months pregnant on our 1 year anniversary, I guess thats what happens when your unexpectedly expecting. Here's some pics of when in all started...sorry for the cheesiness. 

20 weeks:)

So Tuesday was our 20 week ultra sound, I would be lying if I said I didn't have a tear or two come down when I saw this little guy for the first time (that he looked human of course). I loved watching Jacobs face in awe watching our lil creation on the screen. 

I LOVE this one where he is sucking his thumb & you can see he's kickin...made all the movements I feel , even more real to me.

So this is him, I can't wait for him to get here. 20 weeks down so we still got a little while thank goodness cause theres much to do to prepare for his arrival. 

The next day after the ultra sound I got a call from my OB which I thought was really odd, he said he wanted to talk to me about my ultra sound. I fought tears of fear when I heard it cause I was horrified that maybe something wasn't quite right for him to personally call me. I called back and he explained to me that everything is good with the baby, but I have placenta previa. Meaning part of my placenta is covering the cervix right and if it doesn't pull back as the uterus grows along with the baby, that I would have to get a C-section :( But he said it could very well pull back as the uterus grows...so we shall hope for the best :)

We're on a BOAT!!

Yes we sang that song the entire cruise.

So we decided to take our "babymoon" since after the baby comes we won't be able to do this for awhile. We left from Long Beach and stopped at Catalina Island and Ensenada and then spent another few days in Cali after we got off the boat. It was a MUCH needed vacation. I loved every minute of it. We slept for about 12 hours a night, ate about 8-10 meals a day always followed by about 3 ice cream cones after each meal.

Ya we ate a lot. I could actually see myself getting fatter everyday.

Our room was this tiny little cozy cabin with an amazing view of the ocean..

Please don't take my ridiculous poses seriously, I just feel so awkward taking pictures by myself this is just what I do. So Jacob insisted as we leave we have to wave goodbye to the 0 people on land.

So anyone whose gone on a cruise knows that they are CONSTANTLY taking pictures of you and they have these stations where you can get these ridiculously cheezy pictures. So we of course could not resist, I could not stop laughing the whole time but this was the end result of our photo session. & yes I caved and bought it cause Jacobs face KILLS me.

Then on another night I go into the bathroom & leave Jacob for just a moment, and come out and find Jacob taking these....by himself.

And yes I am cheap and took a picture of the picture.

So the first stop was in Catalina where we rented a tandem bike and rode around the island, so fun. 

 I wanted this onesie oh so bad...(this ones for you Ash :)

& then I got these BEAUTIFUL new Toms thanks to my loving husband and it being my birthday the next day..

So the following day we got off in Ensenada Mexico and took a bus to La Bufadora which is a famous geizer there and did some Mexican bargaining at the lil shops.

The next day was a day at sea, Jacob was dying to go on the slide and for me to record him since they had a live camera that would show on the tv stations in our room. Hahah he waved the whole time so I would know it was him, even though that was farely obvous being that he was the only kid above the age of like 7 who went down it.

Yes we did some mini golf, even though Jacob looks like he's at the driving range..

Followed by sticking my legs in the hot tub which you can tell I was devastated I couldn't get all the way in, I love hot tubs :(

So following our cruise we stayed in Cali for another couple days and hung out on the beach, such a needed vacation and I hate coming home to reality :( But I guess we gots to grow up sometime.