Saturday, November 19, 2011

Seriously, 4 am?

I get it now when they say the end of pregnancy is preparing you for baby. It's 4 am and here I am updating da blog! Figured it was time since its been like 2.5 months. Well were almost there, coming up on 39 weeks! I have been trying to stay at work as long as I can but being on my feet for 12 hours with no sleep is getting to be slightly impossible. Hence me calling off today. 

I'm getting to the point of anxiety, anxious to meet this little boy who will forever be part of my existence. It's so weird to think of a human life being created, in a little over a week (hopefully not any longer) Jacob and I will literally be adding someone new to the world, it might be the most exciting feeling I've ever had slash the most terrifying. I'm terrified because for the last 9 months I've thought of almost nothing else but this little boy...and his room, his clothes, what car seat to buy, which fabric to use for his bedding, what books I should buy to read to him...but now its what kind of Mother will I be to him? Will I be patient, will I know how to comfort him, will I know how to protect him from the world...and will I be good at it? I have known since the moment I saw Jacob with his nieces and nephews that he will be good at this...he loves to play, he is extremely patient, and the connections he makes with those that are close to him is unlike anything I've ever seen. This kid is gonna be a dang good Dad.I say kid cause even though he's almost 25 he's kinda just a big kid. 
All I can do now is just wait....wait for these next 11 days to go by to meet this lil person whose been hanging out inside me for the last 9 months. Wait to see the kind of Mother I can be to him. Wait to see what he's gonna look like, what his personality will be like, what he'll like and dislike, and wait to know what this lil boys life will hold. I'm getting overwhelmed just thinking about this journey we are about to start...but I am so excited for it I can hardly stand it! Here are some pics of the room, I have thought about it almost constantly since we found out what we were having...I think it was my way of letting him know how much I'm in love with him already. 










6 comments:

  1. Sarahhh :) I have to comment on your perfect lil' Luke room!! I absolutely love your taste. Thank you for posting pictures because now I know exactly how I am doing my future baby room. You are soo sweet and tender, lil' Luke is soo lucky to come to you. Love you dearly!

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  2. You will be an AMAZING mother!

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  3. I think you will be the perfect Mother to little Luke. You will know how to care for him, how to make to happy, how to raise a perfect little gentleman. Luke is so lucky to have you as his mom, no little boy could be more blessed to have you and Jacob to have as parents. I can't wait to see my friend grow into this perfect little mommy role to her perfect little boy. It makes me so happy for you to start this amazing journey. Plus you can teach me all you know about parenting for when I decide to have babies (yikes!)

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  4. SARA. I'm so happy for you! Mommyhood is THE best thing in LIFE. I remember having very similar feelings. You will be A NATURAL. I would seriously trade you places, to be at the end of your pregnancy, knowing that you can meet your babe any day now.
    Luke's room is perfect. I love Orange, Blue, and Gray. Since when did you become an interior decorator. You are my go-to girl from here on out cuz!!!! Love you lil' cutie. xoxo

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  5. Im so excited for you! I was just asking Ashlyn for an update on your status the other day since it had been a little while since your last post. You will be a great mother, dont stress it! And good luck with the labor, hopefully he comes before you get too uncomfortable! : )

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  6. You are going to be an AMAZING mother! I remember wondering the same things. The best part is that you made him, and he is solely yours and Jacob's little creation. It's hard and you will probably wonder if you're doing it right, but you'll figure it out. He is meant to be with you and you will be the most perfect mom for him no matter what. I can't wait to meet him, and more importantly, for you to meet him!

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